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Rejoicing in Sorrow

Easter is a time when many Christians celebrate the death, Sabbath rest, and resurrection of Jesus. For me, the joy of the empty tomb has been clouded by the sorrow of an empty womb.

A few years back, I woke up excitedly very early on Easter Sunday morning. During the night I had dreamed that I was pregnant. I was late that month, so I thought my dream may be intuition kicking in.

There were no pregnancy tests in the cabinet, so I went and roused my husband. He sleepily agreed to take me to the corner drugstore. The first place wasn’t open because it was too early. The second place had a sign saying it was closed for Easter. The third place in a neighboring town was open 24 hours, so I was able to get what I needed.

Once back at home, there was no delay on my part. I rushed to the bathroom with the purchase and waited breathlessly for the result. Within a couple minutes, my excitement gave way to deep sorrow. Negative…again.

It is very difficult to rejoice when your heart is broken. Can you imagine Mary’s grief at the death and burial of her son, Jesus? Years later, the world would combine cute bunnies and hunts for colored eggs with sunrise church services and “empty tomb” sweet rolls. I wonder if Mary would feel the same joy on Resurrection Morning if she knew the Sacrifice was nearly forgotten during modern Easter celebrations.

Anyway, this year I have a little blessing for which I am so thankful! She is still too young to appreciate the true meaning or the traditions associated with Easter. However, I took time yesterday morning and explained the story to her as best as I could. It went something like this:

A long time ago, Jesus came to earth as a little baby just like you are a little baby. He grew up just like you will grow up. But then His life was cut short because of our bad choices and actions. That is very sad. But Jesus turned the sadness into something to be glad about.

After Jesus rested in his tomb over Sabbath, God, His Father, sent an angel to wake Him up and call Him back to His home in heaven. And that is where Jesus is today. Jesus loves you so much that He is preparing a very special place just for you. With God and the angels, He is excitedly making homes for everyone choosing to live for Him. One day, He will come back to earth to take His people home. That means us! Oh, what a day of rejoicing that will be!

One day you will come to know what death is and the sadness that is part of it. But it is important to remember that we have promises of new life because of Jesus.

“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also.” John 14:1-3 NKJV

That is indeed good news worth celebrating whether it is Easter or any other day.


Taxing Times

April 15. The date marks tax day for Americans and is in no way a holiday people look forward to. Nobody I know likes taxes. It always seems like we are “paying” so much for so little in return. And the forms! Yuck, yuck, yuck.

I am feeling taxed today, not just because of contributions to state and federal coffers but also because I am tired. As a new mom, I can honestly say this is one of the most “taxing” jobs I’ve ever had. I don’t know where they find those perky, put-together moms for those baby products commercials. I certainly would not win the casting call, that’s for sure!

In my experience, albeit limited, being a mom is hard work. Obviously the lack of sleep is an issue, but there are other things that take a toll, too. I look and feel like a mess and the demands are nearly constant. My normal clothes don’t fit right yet and my maternity things don’t fit right anymore. I nearly always sport spots of spit up, and by evening I often reek of sour milk. And like Larry the Cucumber, I don’t seem to even find my hairbrush some days!

Though I am feeling taxed today, I can honestly say I don’t mind paying my dues. In fact, I wouldn’t trade being a mom for anything. Amidst the slobber and the stink are the smiles and snuggles. With the gooeyness comes the goo-goos. With the cacophony come the caresses. And with the exhaustion comes the exhilaration.

So on this April 15th, when my reserves are low from being so taxed, I am fulfilled and thankful for the little blessing that consumes my days and nights. One day too soon I am sure I will be missing these times, so I am choosing to treasure each blessed moment—even the messy, stinky, and sleepless ones.

NOTE: Thank goodness for my husband who provides relief in the evenings so I can get things done like washing dishes, folding clothes, and taking a shower! And hats off to the parents who find themselves raising a child, or children, alone. May God bless you with a double portion of energy and patience.

Thankful Thursday: Sisters

Today’s discovery is that it is National Siblings Day. Apparently, this “holiday” has been around for about 15 years. Have you ever heard of it? I haven’t until now though it seems like a good idea.

I am thankful for my two sisters. Growing up, I wasn’t always so thankful. One was really loud and bossy and one was always getting into my stuff, things an older sister finds annoying. But whoa to whomever dared to pick on them!

Over the years we’ve been through great times and not-so-great times, and every experience just made our sisterly bonds that much stronger. Today, I count them among my bestest of best friends and am so thankful that we will always be close even if we live miles apart.

Love you, L & T!